Sunday Funday.

Weekend brunches made perfect with gd company xx. 

Also been so jaded at work, weekends and off days are the only time I get to dress up and be craycray~ In dire need of more of such.

#RIP.LKY

Tonight, my heart is heavy as we mourn the loss of a great man - the late Mr LKY. Many of us may not know the extent of all his deeds, and some may even disagree with his doings. Yet, this man still gave all he could, even more than we deserved. Rags to riches, he brought us. With the nation's great loss slowly sinking in, the more afraid and heavy-hearted I am. This serves as a timely reminder never to take anything or anyone for granted. The riches we get to enjoy now, they're not forever. The people we cross paths with, they're not forever. Let us all remember while we can, to never ever let it be a case of "too late".

Likewise, there is a God who gave the sin-strickened human race more than they deserved. A Father who gave His Son to mankind, so that we might all live a life far more perfect and beautiful. Yet, all we are full of chastisement.

When will we ever learn, before its "too late"?

w o r k

It's been less than a month at my new workplace and can I already say I don't like it one bit? I was genuinely excited about starting work at a brand new environment which seemed to promise so much. But in my short stint there, it was entirely not how I envisioned it to be. It really isn't what I signed up for.

From not being able to wait to start work, to dreading every single minute. And like a curse, time literally crawlssss when at work. I wna go on and on lamenting but I know its not gna change anything. So inclined to leave because I hate it but something else, though I cant put a finger to what, seems to be holding me back. 

I'm just thankful I chose to do part-time only, or my sanity would definitely be compromised. Gna hang in there for a couple more months before (*fingers crossed) my next adventure! 

What A Joke.

Life is sucha funny thing. It's barely 35 days into the new year and I'm already half amused with what these days have been up to. Where do I even begin.. When life decides to steer you in the exact opposite direction of your choice.

I decided that modeling just isn't my cuppa tea; that I should just give up the idea and start looking for a legit job like a responsible 24 yr old, to feed my constantly rumbling stomach and stop depending on my poor folks. So on I go, looking for a job. And then out of nowhere, I start getting more testshoots than before and clinched a contract for somewhere else later part in the year. All the while I was bumming when school was out since last October, nothing happened.  All these just had to happen after I decided its quits. #JokeNo.1

So I said I've been looking for a job yes? Not actively but yes, I try a bit. Shot a couple of emails to organizations overseas and basically just waited. And waited. My heart skips 10 beats in anticipation each time I hear the buzz of an incoming email. Gave up waiting for any sorta reply, even a rejection; nothing ever came. Couple months on, decided to take on a part time job instead. Second day of training for this new job, an email came in and I check my phone as usual. And I nearly wanted to snort out loud at the reply; which basically asked to send in more documents for one of the overseas organization I've applied for. What more perfect timing could I have asked for this reply. "Right after accepting this new job was the most perfect of course", thought life. #JokeNo.2

I simply do not, and cannot, understand what good or lessons is life trying to educate me by playing such jokes. It's not even funny and I can't laugh. Have not come to a conclusion if these happenings are better this way but I guess I'll have to wait out and see..

B'cos I get to decide whichever day I wna be narcissistic, and today it shall be! And b'cos I'm on a conscious mission to feel good abt myself every singe day. Even if it's feeling good, ugly. Actually, I make a pretty Ok-looking cheena tranny (after patting on 10 layers of make up); Ok enough to get picked out by ah peks without their glasses on. 

"In the end, the only things that matter..

How much you loved,

How gently you lived,

And how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you. "

Forever 21.

Immeasurably blessed, beyond words can express :') Finding ways despite my efforts to turn them away, best and truest bunch of girlfriends. 

2.0.1.5

Yeap, another 365 days has just whizzed past. Not a single day did time stop for me or any of us for that matter, to catch our breath. And trust me when I say the next 365 days isn't gna get by any slower. As far as my memory hasn't failed me, I rmb each day getting by quicker than ever before. 2015 will be  just another story of yester-years in a blink!

Looking back, 2014 was a complete blur, in all honesty. The most recent or only event that I can barely be proud of was to be done with Uni. It isn't so much a big deal cos I took the easy way out and cut short my stint in school, which really isn't anything to brag. That aside, I don't rmb anything else of 2014. It's truly a tragic thought to have let days slipped by you with nothing to look back on fondly, and the days are gone forever. Well, 2014 is gone forever and no one's ever gna be able to deny that.

Haven't chanced upon or hear abt any less than optimistic views of entering the new year so, call me a wet blanket.. I hated it when we crossed into the new year. I hated it that it was 2015 fur'realz. I can't put a finger to what exactly, but I really really really (and I must really mean business when I have so many 'reallys' in a sentence) didn't wna live past 2014. But life is a funny thing~ Am still upset and sulking like a sore brat ha ha #notamusing.

2015 holds so much uncertainties. Am I even ready to deal with this?? This is probably by far the most clueless and possibly helpless I have ever been in my almost 24 years. Part of me wants so much to leave everything behind and take root somewhere else. This option is up for some serious consideration. Till a decision is made, may each passing day be an easier one for err'body!!