Each day is a struggle, down in the dumps one min, and slightly better the next. In the presence of ppl, I try to look so fine, then when Im all alone I crumble so bad. I lose my appetite, I lose my focus, I lose myself along the way, while its just so damn hard on my side, they have it so easy on theirs, feasting like its the new yr's. What for make life so miserable for myself when no one else gives two hoots; I have no ans.
I try, I really do, but not hard enough it seems. Idk how long or if I'd even ever save myself from this rut; never have I felt this helpless. It fking hurts and I can't even lie abt being ok anymore. I question my sanity, but may it not be for long.
Humans, I will never fathom thee.
