HFD.

So, ytd was Father's Day but I did nothing. No wishes no nothing. It wasn't a case of forgetting; I knew it was Father's Day and I rmb. But still, I said nothing. It was a case of absolute indifference. Do I feel bad abt slping thru' the entire afternoon and doing nothing? Yeah, maybe a little.

People around usually only have praises for my dad and tell me I'm so lucky or I'd be very lucky to find a husband like him, and all the time, I can only manage a pretentious smile and nod. It's not in my liberty to wash his dirty laundry on a social platform like this cos that wouldn't be fair and as much as I use this space to make sense of the mindless rambles I constantly have in my head, Idk who might stumble upon this and read something less than pleasant. Not that I don't appreciate my dad, I do. Not that I don't love him, I do.. But if only, I knew how to love him more. Anyhow, since its Father's day, I'll have something nice to say..

No doubt my dad is one who puts his family before himself and I truly appreciate that. It is his love (and my mother's) that taught me to be selfless, and I want to be someone like him. He taught me to give unconditionally, to give with a cheerful heart, with no expectations of returns. My dad has done exactly that for this family, way more than we've asked for and I am thankful. No matter what our aspirations, be it teaching or dancing, he is always 100% supportive. Doesn't matter that we're not the smartest kids in schools or smart enough to work as well-paid professionals, my dad always gives us his blessings in whatever we want to do. Now that I'm older (and more sensible I'd like to believe), he always tell me of the times I was in secondary school and what a handful I was and how he (along with my mum) was genuinely feeling helpless abt what to do with me. But yet, those ugly years didn't stop him from loving this daughter of his. Sidetracking, honestly, I have every right to believe they're exaggerating the whole thing cos com'on, I was such an angel. I know of real tyrants and my parents think I'm one?? Who they try'na kid!

In short, I wished I was that proud daughter who wants a husband just like her daddy.. Though I don't openly show how much I appreciate all that you've sacrificed for this family, Happy Father's Day nonetheless and Thank You for giving us nothing short of the best. 

I wish I never knew..