Big Talks, Bigger Thoughts

Deep talks for big girls.

Meeting up with the IJ girls over the wkend was prolly the best decision all wk. I think the best thing is how we've known some of each other for the longest time in our lives, some going as far back as 16yrs of friendship! Thru' the yrs, we've seen and heard maybe, the dumbest things we do, the mistakes we make, in and out of love, but most importantly, how much we've grown. Some of the topics that circulated around the table really got me thinking..

If I could turn back time.. One thing I'd do is the choose relationships wisely. Disclaimer first, they were great ppl who gave me beautiful memories to look back upon. The only issue here is that all this remains only as memories, they were nothing for my future. Of cos, you'd think I'm being extremely selfish and maybe I really am but deep down really, I know what's of higher importance. If I could choose to do it all over again, I don't wna do it the same way and hurt my family in the process. I rmb the many instances they would be placed second, the times I've to lie and everything else they did nothing to deserve. Yet at the end of the day, while these relationships didn't last, my family's love did.

Success is.. A handsome pay slip with a great job, a dream jeep, a comfortable home topped with a beautiful family. That'd be my answer to you a few yrs ago. I based my success on material goods and monetary values. Of cos all that would make me happy; I could buy happiness literally. And then I think abt success now and all that don't seem to hold that much of an importance anymore. I won't deny that it's hard to not be greedy and to want more, I still do. #YOLO they say, so why wouldn't I want to give myself the best life without having to count my pennies. But when we leave this earth, what happens? Maybe the ppl who gets a share of the moolah I've left behind will thank me for that, and when it's all used up, they'd be "who that girl~". Easier said than done - I'd rather be the girl who had nothing but gave everything.

Everyday, I try. And I count my blessings.