Eventful, nonetheless. Lessons, and a few take-aways.
Take-away 1:
Vulnerability - She'd never show. (Her) weakness, no one will ever know, or at least she thinks so. Thinking acting tough would get her by, she fell. And hard did she fall. To get back up or rather, get back at, folly was all she played. She was high, she was fly. One too many mistakes, regrets in multiples.
So she's learnt, a little help would bid her well. Albeit the occasional uneasiness, all is swell. Even still, there is so much she hides within. Maybe 2013 (if we do get there) would have 'em spilled?
Take-away 2:
Failures & Uncertainties - Aplenty this yr (and still figuring). So many challenges she stepped up to conquer, only to be hurled back down with no way out. They say with each door closed, you'll be one door closer to what has been destined. But with so many doors closed, her faith runs low.
This lil kitty was found soaked in a drain, too shaken to get out. We took him/her out to dry at a corner, meaning to bring papers and milk. When we got back, someone else had already cloth and a dish of water in its space.
"...Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?...Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." - Matthew 6:25-34
Not an easy task in a society like thine, but try she might.
Take-away 3:
Blood ties - The (almost) only real beings, I exaggerate a little (ok no, a lot). You don't hear proclamations of "I love yous", yet feel 'em oozing from every hair follicle. As much as it cracks the sister and I up each time you see the mother rushing to my side each time she hears a thud (I swear its the fastest you'd ever see her run), you really feel the worry and fear she carries with each stride. Each time I stand up to walk somewhere and then pause mid-steps in fear I'd faint in front of anybody and they go "See luh see luh, don't take your medicine". You know it's not the nagging at the tip of their tongues, the worry and concern is all I hear.
Away from their friends and families in Sg, these boys are all they've got before awkward small talks with potential friends in Ipoh (actually kids have it easier).
Not forgetting, I've my family in Christ to thank for so many reasons I cannot count. Clearly, I was quite a fool (still am I'd say).
All geared to start on a clean slate again, 2013 better come! Ha, I hope this burst of enthusiasm doesn't run as quickly as it came.
Anyhoos, I wonder if I'm bipolar. Terrible writing. Third person/first person??
